I'm having a great evening! There are some wonderful staff here at Biloxi Memorial and I've been fortunate to have been treated well by many. Must be something in the water.
Three different cleaning staff here are black ladies, and all three of them are gorgeous. And over the last three hospitals I have interacted with a number of sharp women and I'm really impressed with them all. What's cool is that they like me too! They honestly appreciate my old body, and comment often. We all find ourselves in positions of flattery but nobody's hitting on anyone. It's a mutual state of common admiration and I haven't found myself sexually attracted to anyone in a very long time.
Now I find myself attracted to Amanda. Hell, honestly I saw her in a Zachary, LA group meeting several months ago, for the first time, and I was struck then.
We've been on a few "encounters" since then and what I get out of these contacts is a sharing of affection between two human beings.
I haven't even kissed her, but I fantasize about holding her face in my bare hands and meeting her mouth with mine.
So I don't know what to do. I'm laying in a Biloxi hospital with a damaged body. There's a really good chance that she doesn't share the same feelings towards me, which I would get and accept.
I'm a grown ass man, I know myself pretty well, and I'm writing these words out to my family and friends, honestly. Whatever happens, will be what it is.
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